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EAVESDROPPING

Posted: June 18, 2015 in Uncategorized

HASTYWORDS

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Mumbled whispers

Barely penetrated

Wallpapered walls

As a strangers ear

Struggled to hear

The secrets there

To interpret the rise

To interpret the fall

Of the sound waves

Predicting patterns of

Broken lettered words

Begging to be heard

Fragments bleeding

Splinters of meaning

For this stranger

Who was in love

With the woman

On the other side

 

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All out of inspiration….

Posted: June 18, 2015 in Uncategorized

I haven’t been writing anything for over an year now or maybe even more. I am out of inspirations… its like there is a leech which is sucking all of the ideas out of my head. I have become lethargic, I don’t feel like doing anything. I am taking work for granted but still somehow I have made a good impression among my colleagues and my employer. An impression so good that I don’t feel like I deserve all of this recognition. I hate mediocrity and I have loathed mediocre people all my life but somehow I am turning into something I hated the most. I believe that I can and I should give in my 100% at all times, not just in life but life in general. I believe that I have the capability to do so much more. I have a friend who I call ‘AJ’, he believes in me more than I do or more likely more than I ever will. I just hate the fact that I don’t trust myself enough to accomplish things. I’d rather trust my own life in someone else’s hand rather than on my own. I had a teacher and she used to say that “Faizan, you need to have confidence in yourself”. She was spot on, I didn’t have faith in myself then and I don’t ¬†have faith in myself now. Its like I am stuck in a Black Hole of self-doubt and I can’t seem to get out of it. Sometimes I fear that I don’t want to get out of it. Sometimes I feel like I enjoy it, I have become ‘One’ with it. Sometimes I believe that I have lost the meaning of being who I am or Who I was.

I need an inspiration and I can’t find one.